this place is fantastic, I feel totally at ease here talking about all my weight problems, as everywhere in my life before I have always just been judged.
I am on a long term weight loss programme, I used to be so depressed about my weight that I thought the whole world was against me and got to the point where I wouldnt even leave the house, that all changed when I had Sam, and that put things in perspective for me, I only every wanted to lose weight to look nicer, but now thats not what is important, Im doing it for my health,to be able to have fun with my girls and not embarras them by being the "fat Mam" at school, which I got picked on for because my mam was the big one, and to also live long enough to see my own grandchildren one day.
when I met John 9 years ago, I was if I say so myself a sexy size 14/16 curves in all the right places, and I weighed juat 10 stone, which at 5 ft 2 was probably a bit much but I was happy and healthy, within 6 months of being with him (and on the pill) I had gained almost 6 stone and was up to a size 20 and weighed in at just under 16 stone, since then I have gone on to have 3 girlks and at my heaviest i weighed a massive 18 stone 6 and couldnt bear to look at myself, which I still cant do as the person I see isnt the me i feel like inside, in the past year I have really struggled and have safely lost a stone, sometimes more.
I find it really tough and I lack motivation, I dont know exactly why I struggle with my weight but 1 thing I do know is that with each of my 3 pregnancies I always give birth and weigh at least 2 stone less than I did when I fell pregnant, I dont know if this is because Im not on the injection/pill anymore, or if its a hormone imbalance which adjusts itself when pregnant, ( i researched thyroid problems and found that pregnancy can affect the function of the thyroid, as I have had borderline results in the past)because I dont eat any differently when I am pregnant.and then within a few months of having the baby and going back on the contraception the weight starts going back on again
everyone here is great at offering support and advice and it helps to know that your not alone